What Dreams May Come

Let’s just get this straight: I am a dreamer. I am that person that spends hours looking at paint chips, cabinet doors, area rugs, imagining the space they could fill, the emotions they could elicit, the days I could spend admiring them. More importantly, I am that person blatantly overlooks every important detail (wait is that ceiling falling in…?) in exchange for all the possibilities of a space (but OH if we just knock these seven walls down, imagine the breathing room!). While some home-buyers apparently have trouble overlooking the minor details of houses to see the true bones of a structure, I can’t stop looking past things, searching wildly not only for the bones of a house but also it’s complete medical history and it’s prognosis for the next 200 years. Well-lit front entryway? This baby’s gonna look great with a couple coats of BM Weimaraner, a kitchen overhaul, and oh, three new bathrooms installed. Nevermind the mold problem. 

So when Todd and I moved to Nashville, I made it clear to our realtor that we wanted a project, some place we could make entirely ours with a little time and hard work. In fact we made it so clear that on one particular house viewing our realtor even said while we stood staring at the gaping holes in the crumbling plaster, “None of my other clients would step foot inside this house. I just knew it was perfect for y’all.” But even for a project house we fought hard to get what we wanted. We struggled for months, putting offers on multiple houses and getting out-bid every time. We knew we were looking in a trendy neighborhood, and the longer we searched, the higher the prices were rising.

Finally, I enlisted the help of my fabulous, overachieving parents. (Seriously, they put every tiny accomplishment I make to shame in just a day of living. It’s both humbling and mind-blowing.) Anyway, Todd had just left for a Europe tour and I had sunken into another round of house-hunting blues, searching teary eyed through the same Trulia pages, when my parents came up for a weekend to visit. They had heard and even experienced first-hand our numerous tales of housing defeat, and so they suggested, as if to just past the time, making a few appointments with our realtor. I did so, reluctantly if not grudgingly. Quite frankly, I was tired of being let down, and not to mention, the market had stalled. But, I called her anyway, at least glad to have my parents opinion on a few of the homes I had already seen. Another disclaimer: I am disgustingly indecisive, and often require the minds of a tribe to turn conclusive corners in my own life.

And thus, we went out in the bright weather one Sunday morning in what I assumed would be a slow ride of disappointment. Here’s where the story changed. But first some history: At some point during the weeks before I had seen an ad for a fixer upper in Cleveland Park. I was both intrigued and terrified. Todd was just terrified. We drove by the brick building one evening after dark, me already dreaming about what magical opportunities might await us inside, Todd looking nervously around for gunshots for drug deals. “NO,” was all he said. Over the next few weeks, I made an appointment to see the house and then bailed last minute when another house appeared in a better location. Then when the other house fell through, I couldn’t help wondering about the Cleveland house again. So, when putting together a list of properties to see with my parents in the little time we had, I threw the Cleveland Park house on the list last minute more out of plain curiosity than actual interest.

Well, it turns out Cleveland Park was more than just interest, and not only to myself. At this point, my super-handy parents had so graciously offered to help Todd and I do a somewhat small renovation project, or more specifically a total kitchen overhaul. Anything else would be ours to tackle on our own, and since neither of us is able to do more than hang shelves, we were limited to superficial things like painting and refinishing. That is, until we saw the Cleveland Park house. Or rather, saw what was left of the Cleveland Park house.

There were no walls. I don’t mean it was an open floor plan, I mean the plaster or sheetrock, what little insulation or filler was there 100 years ago had been removed and the only things remaining on the inside were studs. Yes, 2500 square feet of nothing but two by fours. Oh and of course, two fireplaces and a set of original pocket doors (slid between two rows of – you guessed it – 2x4s). It was a dreaming girl’s paradise. While I stood mystified by the fireplaces, my mind already spinning, my father stomped around upstairs, his pace quickening with each new room he entered. I listened intently to his hurried footsteps until they came to a halting return at the bottom of the stairs.

I couldn’t bare to turn around at see him. I thought, he must hate this house, he must think it’s a total unsalvageable dump. Surely, he is moving so fast because it’s just a waste of time. And then? I heard my mother’s voice when she saw my father, “Oh no.” She was half laughing, and my heart jumped. I turned around in anticipation, feeling my dreams - the toasty warm fireplaces burning hot on rainy evenings, the pocket doors concealing a quite study with built-in bookcases - painfully slipping away. I caught my father’s expression only briefly - he had already begun racing through the downstairs for a second time - but I heard him loud and clear when he exclaimed with child-like excitement, “I like it!” As it turns out folks, I’m apparently not the only dreamer in our family.

So here we are. My mother, my father, Todd and I beginning a wildly adventurous, tool-filled dive into the rabbit hole of renovation. I couldn’t be more thankful for my generous parents, or more excited to spend all my waking hours with nailing, sawing, lifting, and gluing with three of the folks I love most. I’m excited, but I say that with caution - the way you take a photo before a 10k, when you’re still all smiles and clean hair. This is where the dreams get real.